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· 7 min read
I have felt like an imposter my entire life, not in my work but in my own body. Most of the time I feel disconnected from myself, like an observer watching someone else live my life, and I do not feel real.
· 27 min read
What to consider before you build a homelab, what to run on it, and how it ties into Home Assistant, Jellyfin, a Tesla, and an eventual off-grid setup. Real power costs, current tooling, and a phased plan.
· 8 min read
Default-deny outbound for servers, give workstations only the network paths they need, isolate management planes, and apply the same least-privilege instinct to identity, DNS, backups, and logging.
· 4 min read
I take actions at face value and miss the feeling underneath. I have done this most of my life, and I hate it. Naming the bias helps. Repair still matters.
· 7 min read
DC-as-DNS blinds the firewall, fakes compromise alerts, and turns a directory outage into “the internet is down”. Put the firewall in front: external names to Cloudflare or Google, internal AD zones forwarded to the DCs.
· 6 min read
I struggle to learn without the why. Curiosity is a constant hunger for more information, and once purpose shows up, the how finally sticks.
· 5 min read
I feel deeply, get hurt, and sometimes hurt others without meaning to. Emptiness, pushing people away, trauma bonds, and the open question of BPD versus autism — and learning to let go.
· 25 min read
Prevention will not stop every attack. Cyber resilience is whether you keep operating, recover safely and learn. What it should look like in practice, twelve measures grounded in 2026 data and NCSC, NIST and CISA guidance, and a 30, 90 and 365 day plan.
· 8 min read
Spotify's co-founder bet on prevention, broken incentives, and longitudinal data. Neko's early numbers look like a thesis shipping, not a keynote — and the NHS version of waiting too long is one I already lived.
· 4 min read
Addiction, ruined relationships, lowered confidence in men, trauma, and what the NoFap community got right. Stop producing it. Ban it everywhere.
· 7 min read
The NHS is brilliant at trauma. For chronic illness and men's mental health it is often a holding pattern. Why I stopped waiting for a system to get curious about me.
· 2 min read
I love these pictures of us. You brought me back from the depth of despair. We get each other, nothing is a contest, and it is a team effort. Thank you for being my world.
· 1 min read
A friend I met through my mum. A genius in dead-end jobs who got me into World of Warcraft, web development, PHP, and Django. He passed away in his house. I still think about him.
· 7 min read
Professionals wrote me off as a child. Bullied, quiet, fixated on computers — and why I resonate so hard with Elon Musk. Miss Barclay, if you are out there: thank you.
· 6 min read
Day job is risk and architecture. The dancefloor is shared pulse, North West lineage, and a room where AuDHD social bandwidth finally makes sense. The kick is the brief.
· 2 min read
A Reddit post about partners who pick fights before deadlines and big days named the sabotage. I am with someone who makes me feel safe and loved now, and the alarm finally quieted.
· 6 min read
Subjective reality is the filter. Objective reality is what is left when the filter lies. Cortisol, thyroid, sex steroids, and metabolic chemistry shape that filter — and a lot of human conflict is two filters colliding.
· 7 min read
Alcohol has real trial evidence. Cannabis, nicotine, opioids, and stimulants have signals and studies underway. What the reward biology explains, what it does not, and why this is not an approved addiction cure.
· 5 min read
A birthday that felt safe for once. Care instead of manipulation, love instead of isolation, and why the right person is not the one who needs you broken.
· 8 min read
Androgen receptor density, fibre type, daily use, and muscle architecture explain stubborn calves and fast traps. Same hormones and training land on an uneven map.
· 4 min read
Simulation theory stops being a joke when you notice we are already nesting worlds with AI. The map feels solid from the inside. That is how a good game works.
· 6 min read
Intimate predators and nation-state algorithms use the same levers: intermittent reward, threat cycling, shame, and isolation. The goal is dysregulation, not debate.
· 5 min read
Why autistic attention tunnels make immersion beautiful and release hard, and why rejection, sensory load, and rumination make hurt land louder and stick longer.
· 6 min read
Enemies become allies, characters actually change, and the real plot is the one I reused after bullying, failure, and heartbreak: take the hit, power up, come back sharper.
· 6 min read
A grounded 2036 sketch: AI as plumbing, harder identity, uneven autonomy, energy constraints, healthspan, and the boring skills that still decide who wins.
· 5 min read
When accountability is a threat, guilt gets relocated onto you. How to tell true conscience from projected shame, DARVO, and guilt-tripping.
· 6 min read
Nothing was ever enough. Drama, victimhood, and emotional drain that left self-harm, night terrors, a breakdown, caught fleas mistaken for BPD, and trust that still will not come easy.
· 5 min read
Autism can make me more prone to outbursts that do not match who I am the rest of the time. A flooded state is not a character reveal. Do not weaponise it.
· 19 min read
The master plans, Robotaxi, Optimus, European regulation, and a possible SpaceX merger. Why the evidence that Tesla can still get there is already in the documents, not just the keynotes.
· 8 min read
Depressed from 11 into my thirties. Assessed, listened to, prescribed for, and never once given a blood test. When someone finally took one, my testosterone was on the floor.
· 12 min read
Living off the land, dual-use RMM tools, trusted tunnels, and valid credentials put attackers in a grey zone where nothing looks malicious. Prevention narrows the door. Managed detection and response is what resolves the ambiguity at 2am.
· 7 min read
A compelling case for containerisation: faster experiments, image hubs, sane updates, honest trade-offs, real scale, and why containers are perfect for home labs.
· 6 min read
From Arup's deepfake boardroom to Ferrari's near miss, DPRK hiring deepfakes, and voice-clone family scams: what AI-enabled attacks look like in the real world, and what actually stops them.
· 8 min read
Why peptides are having a moment, what major categories actually do, and how patentability and compounding rules shape access in 2026.
· 9 min read
Attackers are logging in as your users through AiTM phishing, social engineering, RDS, portals, and mailboxes. Prevention still matters. Identity threat detection and response is what catches what gets through.
· 4 min read
Why a computer startup script that uses Win32_UserProfile often beats the built-in GPO that deletes profiles older than X days on restart.
· 3 min read
Azure HA for Sophos is not the same as plugging two appliances into the same LAN. Use Azure Load Balancer with health probes, then align policy across nodes with Sophos Central—because you are orchestrating two independent firewalls, not one clustered brain.
· 2 min read
Stand up Sophos Firewall (SFOS) as a VM on Proxmox for proof-of-concept or lab: images, NICs, resources, and a few pitfalls before you mirror the same design in production hardware.
· 5 min read
Split Main, Guest, and IoT networks on a UDM Pro, keep IoT off your trusted LAN, and allow Chromecast and AirPlay from phones and laptops without flattening security.
· 2 min read
Use Microsoft’s Win32 Content Prep Tool to wrap your installer folder into an .intunewin, then publish a Win32 app with silent install and detection.
· 1 min read
Structuring Entra ID policies so security improves without endless exclusions.
· 1 min read
A practical order of operations before you flip enforcement policies.
· 1 min read
Why quarterly test restores beat a perfect backup policy on paper.
· 1 min read
Constrained language, logging, and approval flows for high-privilege sessions.
· 1 min read
Split-horizon, logging, and filtering without turning your helpdesk into a ticket factory.